literature

Is this me?

Deviation Actions

DarkAngelOfLov's avatar
Published:
2.8K Views

Literature Text

I think this is me
Is this who I am?
I try and tell myself apart from you
But I don’t think I can

Of course that’s not you
I should know since you’re me
I’m the one stuck on the inside
But I’m who we’re supposed to be


But I’m not like you
I don’t handle things the way you do
You’re to pushy for me
I don’t want to be you

Give me a break you wimp
Take a stand for once in your life
Do you really want to sit there
While he cuts you with his knife?


Of course I don’t want to
But I don’t want to hurt his feelings
Even if he hurt mine
To hurt him, what’s the meaning?

You weak little bitch
That’s it sit there and take it
But don’t cry to me
When he figures out you faked it


But I didn’t fake it
I want to be with him
I love him so much
Can that be a sin?

You don’t love him
I know because you’re me
And I know he’s worthless
But why can’t you see?


He’s not worthless
His life has been filled with strain
I want to help him past that
I want to take away his pain

Oh sell it to someone else mother Theresa
You’re no better then I am
You think because he’s like us
He’ll actually give a damn?


Yes actually I do
I think I can help him to heal
I want to hold him in my arms
And show him that love is real

Oh how sweet of you
But you’re stupid if you think
That when he’s done with you
He won’t toss you aside in a blink


He wouldn’t do that to me
I know deep down he cares
He might not show it a lot
But when I need him he’s always there

He might be here now
But that’s going to come to an end
One day he’ll get sick of you
And he won’t even be your friend


I can’t stand the arguments
I don’t care if we fight
I wish you’d leave me alone
Not when I know I’m right

Is this really who I am?
Is this how we’re going to be?
Doomed to fight forever
Is this really me?
This just hit me last night, because this is what I go through everyday. I'm two different people trapped in one body, and the people I'm around don't help me any. I have some people telling me if he's really sorry then I should forgive him and try again, then I have people telling me that he's an ass and that I should never speak to him again.

I'm tired of everyone telling me what to do. Part of me knows that he's an ass and that I should kick him to the curb and leave him there, the other part of me wants to forgive him and hold him in my arms. I don't know what to do anymore.

I appreciate all the advice that everyone here on DA has given me but I think I just want to leave things alone for awhile. Because if not I think I'm going to go insane.
© 2007 - 2024 DarkAngelOfLov
Comments53
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
XY-666's avatar
I feel as though I'm about as dual as this poem makes you out to be. Wonderful work.