DarkAngelOfLov

I knew I was gonna do it. I missed my ten year anniversary on here, it was the 15th

Maaaaaaaaan I can't believe I've been on here ten years. Admittedly I've been a little inactive for the last few years, but still. Ten years a Deviant :3 Feels a bit like an accomplishment.

Well, happy ten years to me! xD  

So, I'm pretty sure my cat broke his leg again. 

Most of you probably won't remember, but when my cat was two (he's eight now) he broke his leg. He had to have surgery to fix it and it cost me over a thousand dollars. He acting almost the same way he was before, but this time whenI touched his he actually hissed at me. HISSED at me... he is eight years old and never, not once, not even the first time he broke his leg, has he hissed at me. 

I have an appointment to take him into the vet tomorrow, and I'm terrified that his leg IS going to be broken and I'm not going to be able to pay for them to fix him. 

I don't know what to do ;~; 

I miss being here. I never seem to find the time to get on though. I started a new job back in march and they work me really weird hours. It's more than double the hours I was getting at my last job, so it's nice, but..... the hours are weird, and I'm always tired. 

I haven't written anything in ....fuck maybe two years now? How sad is that? I used to LIVE for writing, and even though I still love it and still want to write for a living, things have just been.. weird for me. 

My doctor has diagnosed me as depressed, which I thought was a possibility for a few years, but now that it's official it's.....weird.

Weird is the word of the day btw.

I feel like things are getting worse as I get older. Not real life stuff, that's always the same, but my mood and attitude towards things. There isn't any medication I can take right now cause I have no insurance and I can't pay out of pocket for it, so there's all these 'home remedy' things I'm supposed to be trying out, but idk if anything is working. 

I want to write. I really do. I think about things I can write about all day at work and I get really excited about it, but then when I get home I lose the feeling and the inspiration that I had and I end up doing nothing.

I don't even feel like talking to my friends like I used too. I had made so many friends online in anime communities and such, and now I hardly talk to anyone anymore.  

.....I'm not really sad about any of this. I'm just....... Blah. 

Sooooooo hiiiiii. I've been gone forever I know. Um, life has been the same basically; I'm still working at my job (thank God) still in love with the same boy (FML) and still haven't written ANYTHING in almost two years. 

So at my job I'm going to start being trained for fill in supervisor. So like if one of the managers can't cover a shift, I get to cover for them. It'll be more money when I act as a manager AND I get to say that I have the experience, so if I leave this job I can apply for a management position somewhere else o: Am excited.